An honest answer to an all-too-common question |
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This morning, in the presence of
Jesus, I feel gladness and joy. I
feel happy
as I consider my standing as an heir of God.
I feel honored to be counted among the saints of the
Almighty One. I
feel free to enjoy His presence as one of
His own. I sense
the opportunity to be a
partaker of the joy of the angels in Heaven as they add their harmony
to the
song of the Redeemed. I
feel a big smile
of gratitude welling up inside me; but I don’t necessarily
feel excited. This morning, I feel overwhelmed
because of the weight of things I have recently needed to repent for. Though I have been
forgiven, I still feel the
need to forgive myself for a long list of things which should not, but
do
remain in my memory. I
feel the need to
purge my thoughts and ensure that these things will not return and
cause me to
slip at some future time. I
feel
contrite, lowly in spirit, and ready to fall on my face; but I still
don’t feel
excited. This morning, I feel very aware of
the presence of the Lord here. I
feel
the need to respond in worship, to humble myself, and to identify with
the
other worshippers around me. I
have the
desire to plumb the depths of the One to whom I owe my prime devotion. I feel free to express my
love for my God in
ways that are heartfelt, sincere, and uniquely mine; but I
don’t feel excited. This morning, I feel pensive, knowing my need to search my heart for ways to honor the Lord with my actions. I feel anticipation about ministry opportunities I expect to encounter in the coming days. I feel ready to face the world, knowing that I am a well equipped overcomer and can, with love, conquer any obstacle; but I simply don’t feel excited. So this morning, pardon me if I don’t shake pom-poms or damage my throat with a shrill response to your sis-boom-bah. Excuse me if I don’t flail about or make a rash promise to sell some religion this week. Forgive me if I let your call to excitement fall on apathetic ears. But I’m afraid that I’m just not excited this morning. |